Compare a book to DEXTER, and I’m instantly going to pay attention.
Maybe I have a soft spot for vigilantes.
Maybe I have a soft spot for dark characters with good intentions.
Or maybe I just have a soft spot for complexity.
Either way, I knew I had to take a look inside PSYCHO INSIDE ME.
Psycho Inside Me
by Bonnie R. Paulson
Release date: November 30th 2013
Publisher: Captiva Publishing
Blurb: I killed my first victim at thirteen years old – my age, not his. He was going to rape me, him and a couple of his friends. And so, I killed him. And then… I killed again. And again.
At seventeen, I’m killing four to six times a year – maybe more. Don’t stress out. I only go after the pedophiles and rapists. There are more out there than I could cover in a lifetime.
Saying I did this on my own would be selfish. Enforcing justice holds a glory all its own. But now, my lifelong friend and backup, Deegan, has been arrested. I have to decide if I want to give myself up and take his place or leave him with all the damning evidence. I don’t want to stop killing. But if I let him take the fall, I can’t kill anymore. And I need to keep doing that.
But the worst part of it all? I love him.
Muse Kristen’s Thoughts
I walked into PSYCHO INSIDE ME expecting a simple thriller. I closed the book with a lot of thoughts in my head, from what society views acceptable, to the difference between right and wrong. This book will be divisive – I can imagine mixed reactions on all sides from love to hate. But isn’t a good book supposed to spark emotions?
One moment changes everything for thirteen year old Cassie, the preacher’s daughter, when she is attacked by a group of local thugs. Her first kill. Her first brush with real adrenaline. Her first fall into a dark but sweet relationship. This kill becomes a need, and a reason to continue her twisted relationship of sorts with Deegan.
Cassie becomes more and more bold as the story unravels – and more crass. The way the story is told represents this – which may not to be every reader’s likening. I didn’t agree with all of Cassie’s choices, especially not the way that danger became necessary for her. It’s hard enough to consistently make smart choices at seventeen, much less when there’s constant danger thrown in the mix.
I will say I had to suspend belief a little at parts. While I somehow don’t blink at the thought of a teenage serial killer, some of the situations Cassie gets herself into seemed a little over the top. But I’m a small town girl, what do I know?
Is this a young adult book? Oh, hell if I know. I’ve been debating this since I was halfway through the book. The age of the protagonist fits young adult, as the book travels between the ages of thirteen and seventeen. However, I wasn’t entirely sure that the character growth fit the coming-of-age theme that accompanies young adult, despite Cassie’s dabbles in finding herself. I’m not one for book censorship due to age (mind you, I read Stephen King’s IT when I was in seventh grade), but I did find myself questioning if I’d recommend this book to the young. If you want to call this young adult, I’d call it a very mature young adult read.
I’d have to do some serious praying for all the lying I was doing. Dad would pee his pants, if he knew about my sins. Even with my new fashion, he still thought of me as his good little girl.
Good little girls get raped.
“Oh, of course. I’m sorry. Almost thirteen. Drink up Cathy. I don’t want you to get dehydrated.” He mispronounced the last word, making it sound like dehydranted. But my nerves returned, drying my throat and blocking the laugh I should have pushed out.
The good little girl in me wanted to go home. But the side that wanted justice for Kari’s pain and safety for the young boys refused to budge. I’m doing this. I can do this.
About The Author: Bonnie R. Paulson
There are people who know a lot about a little, we’ll call them experts. Then there are people, like Bonnie, who don’t specialize, but rather gather information like pebbles in their pockets and drop them like Hansel & Gretel in the stories they write.
The question is, do you want to follow them back?
Certified as a Radiologic Technologist, Bonnie prefers a touch of medical in her storylines. Don’t be surprised if romance somehow runs through a hospital or comes in contact with a paramedic. It’s just how she rolls. And you know there’s nothing more romantic than an 18 gauge needle poking your vein!
She and her Hubs delight in dirt biking, snowboarding, fishing, cooking, eating, spending time together and more with their adorable children.